the most frustrating password recovery process ever

I am the one who owns this account,  who the heck else would know the secret post by email addy?  please help me recover it without making me buy a year of service from rcn for lackluster service....Please Google, please help me retrieve my password.

07DEC23_ 2342 Fatigue

My body aches and i'm weaving in the bed
He keeps pacing and engaging me
and I'm really to sleepy
and I don't mean to be disrespectful
i'm just beat and slipping into unconciousness

07DEC09 Skin

it is 2 in the AM
and my skin tingles with the dry air
and i'm awake and the kids are asleep
and I want to scratch my skin off
i've tried to sleep and it is too hot
and the bed was messy
so I fixed the blankets,
and i still feel the tingles,
the nerve endings begging to be assaulted
the hot dry skin on my neck,
the way my hair touches my shoulder
the way the tingle under my arm makes me want to scratch
I worry about the

07DEC05 The snow

it fell last night and it covered the yard and my spirits
it's hard to get motivated to do anything when
the next appointment you have is next week
and the next thing you must do is
a chore and everyone looks to you for their happiness
and looks to you to dothings their way
and you are tired of this responsibility and they scream
and they rage and they discount your concerns
'and your rage and they shout you down and they ttell you to leave and it would be so easy
to go, it would be so easy to go
I am trying to move forward
I am trying to be better
I am trying to change
he is suspicious
he is angry
he is unwilling to change
I want to tell him I am beautiful
I want to tell him I am inteligent
I want to tell him I am leaving
I want to tell him he's an ass
then he does something
and the anger and resentment fades and I remember how he was once
how I want him to be again
but our dreams, the ones we shared
they are a long memory and we both feel trapped
and we both resent
and I won't stay like this I won't

07DEC04 It's not about whether you like it

it's about you being bad.
husky boy in the wrangler jeans
that what he said when I told him
I liked a stocky boy, you know, I said, "Sturdy"

07DEC03 Birthday

It was a quiet day,
we all were sleeping late
the dark comfort of the
heavy window dressings,
Blocking the cold
and the light
not enough light to wake us
enough to make us think it
is much earlier than it really is
and we drowse thru another day
seeking Connections thru the computer
knowledge and the laundry lays undone
and you're angry and I'm depressed
and neither one of us can turn back the clock
not today, if we try hard, if we want it,
But today is her birthday and she is 9
and she is getting smarter than us,
and she said "stop being cruel"
and you were taken aback.
Her Birthday, and i'm over the theme
and I don't know who i'd invite to a party for you
and I can't think how I'd pay for it
I don't want it to be just a day
but that's all it is just another day in paradise
we've got kung fu and the boy won't put his pants on
and she settles for her plain cake with candles
and I make a video of us singing happy birthday to you
in the dark with the candles lighting your face
and the end is dark.
and i wonder will she forgive me when she's older

07DEC01 Losing data

My laptop stopped working
it was pretty grim
I've lost all my recent writings once again
well, it will be better next time
when I write the stories again

Or not, but the words
they come in spite of this loss